A piece of dark chocolate that taste like hell

Well, I've met again my long lost friend. Its been years since we last met but easily bridged the time that we had lost. Though it seemed that we had been apart for years, I could still say that somewhat I knew some of his antics and mannerisms just as if we meet each other everyday. It was a good thing for me because I'm a kind of person that really value the relationship that I had with other people. And the sign that I really value the relationship that I had with a certain person is to somewhat memorize the mannerisms that they had or to let them know my mannerisms or to give some hints about how my brain works.

As I was saying, I knew there is something wrong that's happening with him since I somewhat knew how his brain ticks. He need not to say this to me but behind his laughter and his manly image his heart is tearing a part. So, I asked what's bothering him.

"Nothing"
"Liar"
"It's really nothing"
"If it's nothing, then tell me"
"Then, what should I tell you?"
"What bothers you most"
"Oh no, It's very trivial"
"Trivial??!!! Oh C'mon!!! Why should I bother to ask you if its trivial??"
"It's very trivial indeed that you need a microscope to be able to see it"
"You cant hide anything from me. You're like my brother to me."
"Really??"
"Yup (^.^)"
"Well, you're right I do have something that bothers me"
"See... Anyways, what is it?"
"Well, you see... I miss SOMEONE"
"SOMEONE???!!!"
"And why dont you tell that SOMEONE that you missed her??"
"I cant"
"Why"
"Its because..."
"Because what???"
"Its because she already know that I do have feelings for her."
"And???"
"And she IGNORES me and doesn't speak to me anymore like we usually do..."
"May be and just may be, you have done something that made her TO IGNORE YOU."
"I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG as far as I am concerned."
"???"
"All i wanted is TO BE WITH FRIENDS WITH HER EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT SHE DOESN'T LIKE ME AND SHE LIKES SOMEONE ELSE FAR BETTER THAN ME..."

I stopped for a moment thinking that I had opened his pandora's box. And at that same moment, I felt his pain. An emotional pain that even I cant endure. His pain of rejection seemed to have engulfed my whole body.

Habit

Every day we do a lot of things. We often follow a routine. We do a set of tasks and we normally do it everyday of our lives. And sometimes we act under a specific habit that we had acquired a long time ago.

Well, according to wikipedia.com, a habit is a automatic routine of behaviour that are repeated regularly without thinking. It happens without any contemporaneous intention of this person. To cut it short, these are set of actions that we normally do without even thinking that we are actually doing it .(how ironic!!!) Our habits could reflect what kind of lifestyle that we are living right now and this could also mean how we are coping with the varying situations that are happening around us.

Since habits are actions, it could be either good or bad. We all know the major differences between the two of them. But the problem arises when we acquire the bad habits. Since it repeatedly done and it is done without thinking, breaking these bad habits would really need a great effort from us. It would take a lot of determination from us.

And breaking our habits is really that hard. Just remember that: if somebody else can do it, why do you bother to do it also. (joke!!) "IF SOMEBODY ELSE CAN DO IT, YOU COUKD DEFINITELY DO IT JUST MIND OVER MATTER!!!!!"